SIGH

There are so many ' whys ' in my life , especially when they come to my personal life and thoughts .

• My friends can conversate in excellent English but I can't .
• My friends can achieve a wonderful flying colours result in the same exam that I sat .
• My friends can get positions in all field she joined but I'm not .
• My friends can put on mostly any kind of clothes and look gorgeous on her but not suitable on me .
• My friends can be a good leader in a team .
• My friends have a good memory to memorise facts when learning . . .
• My friends can conversate well in all topics she started .
• My friends can handle a good , smooth conversation with strangers .
• My friends can socialize excellently and at the same time being excel in studies .
• My friends can lead a better ambience of life with her charisma .
• My friends can dream for something that she determined to achieve .
• My friends always have a good relationship with teachers .
• My friends can . . . . Ughhh I can't list them !

But the point is , why I can't be like them ? Yeah it is true when people keep saying that " Just be yourself " . But at the same time , you have to idolise people around you in order to make yourself better . Am I right ?

Effort works when people do it ! Hm maybe there are too much sighing till I forget to force myself harder in studying or whatever I want . But have you heard bout ' Qada and Qadar ' . I do believe them ! Whatever it is , I'm sure my creator , Allah has his own way in loving me . As long as I still remember him and put him on the top list , InsyaAllah I'll always be on the right path .

Maybe I do have to learn a good social skill . Help me , someone ?

Sorry for my bad English --.--